alright my lj is gonna become a recipe haven to show off some food me and other friends have cooked up, with the supervision and much help from chef randall.
todays post will be on sushi and some sexy mushrooms with seasonings.
so we were supposed to meet at kap's cold storage to buy the ingredients to make em. me jo and randall, then later aerin came over to join us. ok so we got to work...and tadah!

preparing the baby portabello mushrooms

they look awesome dont they!

so basically all u need to make the stuffing are : onions, garlic, fry em in butter then add salt and pepper, cook until smells nice, take out then add some honey and wine then spread them in the mushrooms, put into oven and leave for around 15mins then once u take it out its damn hot and smells fucking orgasmic, as randall put it, orgasmatron haha.
yep so moving on the sushi, we made crab stick mayo, tuna mayo, bacon and salmon and avacado, and some mussels sushi haha



right we were supposed to make wagashi but we didnt have the ingredients so we'll leave that to another time. more food posts to come in the future!

randall's mushroom soup

serves 15 people

ingredients: 1kg mushrooms assorted (shitake, button, oyster, golden, enoiki, portobello whatever), 4 leek leaves, 2 celery stalks, 1 parsnip, 2 big white onions, 2 litres chicken stock, 8 tablespoons butter, 10 table spoons flour, whipping cream milk

chop up vegetables, cook vegetables, chop up mushrooms, cook with vegetables, add chicken stock, simmer, blend in blender, add cream, add roux (roux = melted butter + flour), add salt + pepper to taste

SEX is ready

need to learn mussels in cream sauce, beef hamburger patties

everyone who came for the bbq on friday, a big thank you to all of you, you guys are the best. more of such to come after As! looking forward to ya'll company again

today i ran 14x200m 30-32 seconds and my legs are mother sore. 800m better get 2:06 or below for nationals biatches!!!!

i'm so glad i managed to talk to you today and clear things out. don't run away when things look gloomy, just puff up, stand up and face your troubles head on. be strong for i'm with you always (:

no use being angry anyways, it wont help to solve anything and besides it'll only serve to cause more pain to myself and those around me. the run was good, i ran all the way back to sch non-stop and i'm surprised cause ive not ran since around 2-3 weeks before the start of promos. my legs are killing me now and i'm frigging tired...i think i may not go to sch if my legs are aching tmr morning. yep im gonna sleep way early tonight.

whenever i think im there, im never there. maybe im just trying too hard...maybe.

is it just me or what? i took the advice and i tried to follow it but it just doesnt seem to fucking work!!! dammit la, i wanna bang my head against a brick wall man....no, u know what i wanna take an axe and chop a frigging tree down, like channel all my frustration into the hatchet some time later ill be able to see the devastating impact of it when the tree is felled.

i'm so gonna run today cos thats when i feel the most free from everything, complete freedom...ill run wherever my legs can take me, somewhere where ill feel away from the present and in my own world.

i'm staring into the darkness of the void where where everything gets sucked in just like a blackhole

yeah song balls man, hist paper is finally over alr. technically its as good as the end of promos alr, but nah still got econs maths and geog. well at least they're not as bad as hist. its like studying 74589743 subjects merged into 1. argh but im just hoping that i'll be able to pass hist and the rest of my other subs and promote to J2...dammit, i didnt complete the hist paper today. sbq only evaluate support sources and 1 intl essay nvr write finish. even then i still feel damn lucky cos the sbq was on ASEAN Way and i totally forgot wtf was it...so i just tikam my support and challenge sources. so hengz that i managed to group them correctly if not i surely fail alr.

ahhhh econs econs econs econs on thurs thurs...studied in the lib today after the paper....i think im gonna need to read it like another 5 times b4 i get it all in. goodnightzzz pplzzz

lalalalalala hist on mon...............mon mon mon..............MON. so lets just see.....hmmmmmmmmmm

origins of CW....ah yes thats delicious, WW2 has just ended...lets go to yalta. ooo stalin's really happy there, he got so many gifts he asked for like poland + En Eur. omg poor franklin had a heart attack! i guess harry will have to take over...oh dear, he doesnt really like that stalin guy huh? complained like crazy at post yalta that stalin had to shut him up by giving him some sweets though he didnt take the dollar...anyways, stalin tried his luck again at potsdam, wanted to ask for more sweets from germany to fill his pot back in USSR. damn that bastard truman, stalin give him sweets last time then now dont want to give back. oh well, shall we send a telegram to tell kennan that we're coming? then we can go to UK and knock on churchill's iron curtain and see if he'll invite us for tea. oh yes, stalin's quit pissed that we didnt invite him yes? he now in manchuria cos its so near USSR and dropped by iran for some oil...we gotta chase him outta there man, supposed to w/draw long time ago. oh and turkey too, stalin's looking for ports for access...can't give him nvm ill rmb to tell harry and george to send him an invitation for the upcoming doctrine and see if he is interested to join us for the plan. NO? ur too lazy to fly ur fat ass over? ah so you and molotov have thrown your own party huh? ehhh why the fuck are u disturbing me? i didnt do anything to help that cheena communist mao or tito! those stupid "fake" communists...kope my idea one. then when mao win alr, u say i expansionist. lucky tito lost sia, if not u disturb me again. nbcb i buay song alr, i go put block on berlin wahahaha! u think u damn smart issit stalin? i simply airlift my supplies over your block heh and i form NATO alr song balls...cant touch this =P meanwhile the 3 allies in the western zones came up with the Wn Germs and the soviets with the En Germs...sia lah got mini version of division of Eur there. eh Wn Germ come join NATO! YUEH \m/ OH SHIT MAN....we gotta copy them, we make Warsaw.

MAIN CAUSE OF COLD WAR---------->CONFLICTING NATIONAL INTERESTS DAMMIT!!!---------->DIFFERING VIEWS OF SECURITY------------------>MISINTERPRETATIONS OF EACH OTHER------------>ACTION REACTION SCENARIO

it was seen as a joke but the pain was real. like a prick to the heart and then came the tingling of all sensations. why did i feel that way when i heard those words? it points towards the most obvious thing, some know it, some know it not. i understand that it meant nothing, it was just out of fun in our context. but the sensation was there, i cannot doubt it.

now i understand why shao felt exactly the same way, the time when we went over to stay at dan's place after midsummers night dream. but the way he felt was worse because he didn't totally understand it, cos she took it seriously and he knew that she just said it carelessly, causing it to slip from her tongue.

words from a close one mean the most, console the most, cheers one up the most or can even hurt the most. that was why those words to me meant so much, reason being only the obvious. i have done what i can, said what i have said, poured my heart out to you. all i ask in return is your sincerity.

Foo Fighters - Times Like These

I am a one way motorway
I’m the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I’m a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I’m a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

never ever say fuck in my house man. my mom just totally went nuts and all when it accidently slipped from my mouth. here's what happened...
i msged annabelle telling her that i was gonna pass her her birthday gift (which was actually ben & jerry's Cherry Garcia flavour ice cream. just as i finished msging her and put down the phone, i saw my bro in law with a cup of ice cream. i was like "oh shit, is that the cherry garcia one?" i went to the freezer to check and when i saw the plastic wrapping missing, i went "oh fuck" my mind was just thinking how the heck am i gonna give it to her now thats its opened and shes waiting for me? i guess i just jumped to colclusions too quickly and didnt realise that i could just buy another one down at the 7-11 which was just like 5 mins away.
haha well, i apologised to my bro in law after coming back home...yeah my mind was just racing and i didnt think before i said thus blurting the word fuck. i guess my causual use of it sometimes in sch and among friends had made me forget that vulgarities were not tolerated in the house. but i gotta admit la, my mom was just too overkill, shouting all over the place. i guess she didnt understand what was going through my head but i know i was wrong to kick up such a big fuss over a tub of ice cream.
ah well back to studying hist, gotta do 2 tutorial outlines now....ciao

its been one and a half years since i touched an online journal. well, im jus hoping this time i wont jus chuck it aside like i did with the other one cos i was jus too lazy and busy to update.

communication is key, yes that's very important. expressing yourself and sharing your feelings with others to build trust and a sense of mutual understanding. keeping thing to yourself doesn't help, it only serves to build up and things tend to turn out to be nasty whenever those feelings especially the unpleasant just suddenly spill out. that is one of the 2 ways in which to empty that vessel, but its obviously not the best way, in fact it is the worst way. the other way is to pour it out slowly without it spilling all over the place and you do that through a person, be it friends, family, teachers or someone who is patient and willing to listen to your problems.

i myself sometimes find it hard to share these personal feelings with others, be it because they might think im weak, fear that it might sound stupid and the chance of it landing in the ears of others. but true friends would never walk away on you and they are more than willing to listen to you and help you out with their own experiences. there is also the prospect of them sharing their own personal feelings because it was you who shared yours with them first. it is common of me to just sit back and wait for others to make the first move, and sometimes though occasionally it comes. but when you want to make the first move, you suddenly realize it is just so difficult and you really look up to those people who came up first. i tend to be a quiet person all my life but ive been slowly trying to open myself up to others, starting with my siblings. my bro hardly comes and visit probably once a month or less, now that he's living in his own apartment with adeline. my sis visits every day, cause she sends her daughters here for my mom to babysit, why do i not take the opportunity to talk to her? is it because they are so much more older than me? yep, lets look on the positive side of that, them being much older than me they are an oasis of wisdom which other people's siblings who ages are close, may not have.

yes im really grateful to God for giving me my family, pa ma kor and jie, my closest friends, joel wilson ryan randall joan, and the person closest to my heart, natalie. thank ya'll loads for being there for me, thought i wish i could do more to show my appreciation, really.